Friday, December 25, 2009
Back in Business--December 24, 2009
I woke up at 7:04 A.M. To the view of the sun rising over the ocean. It's kind of crazy to wake up in your "office." I stepped outside to pee, then hopped back in my airplane. I started up and headed for Ft. Lauderdale.
I arrived at 8:30 A.M. I grabbed some mouthwash in the bathroom, called Matt and asked him to grab me breakfast, called home, and just waited for work to start!
A half hour later, I was out in the airplane again. What a life.
I was able to finish one flight plan, but that was it. We had clouds.
I landed at 11:30...having flown 4.1 hours by that time.
I grabbed Arby's on the way to the hotel, then came back and slept from 1:15 to 3:00. I woke up mildly refreshed.
Sandy came over to "talk" at 4:00. That was anything but pretty. In no uncertain terms, it's over. She wants long-term, I want companionship. It's not that we want different things, really. It's just timing. I can't get her what she needs. She won't give me what I need. Crap.
Went out to eat with the boys for supper. I was so hungry. I hadn't eaten well in a little over a day. I stuffed myself at Chili's.
Came back and spent the night in the hotel. Chelsea called me and said she had made it back fine. Good. We talked for 20 minutes.
I went to a Christmas Eve Service at night. I suppose it was good, but church is just silly to me. It's certainly geared towards "locals." I don't know where I fit into life anymore. Relationships with people, relationships with God. It's all geared towards having roots. I have no roots. So I have no...
Came back to the hotel. Stayed up until 1:00.
I guess it's Christmas right now. Hmm. I walked home from the church...a little over a mile. It was 74 degrees. Matt made the comment it feels anything BUT like Christmas. Yeah, I agree, sir. I told him I was a bit nostalgic last year...especially with Thanksgiving and flying over and seeing families meeting at various homes. I just knew what they were doing!
This year, though...hmm...I have no emotions. I am nothing short of numb to it. I guess you just accept your allotment in life. I get no holidays, so I guess I just live with no holidays. No need to be sad.
Christmas tomorrow. Today. Whatever.
No, it sure doesn't feel like it.
I'm not sure what I'm ready for...but I think I'm ready for it.